Magdalena

Overcome by your moving temple overcome by this holiest of altars
So pure so rare to witness such an earthly goddess that i've lost my self control Beyond compelled to throw this dollar down
Before your holiest of altars
I'd sell my soul my self esteem a dollar at a time for one chance one kiss one taste of you my magdalena
I bear witness to this place this prayer so long forgotten so pure so rare to witness Such an earthly goddess that i'd sell my soul my self esteem a dollar at a time for One chance one kiss one taste of you my black madonna
I'd sell my soul my self esteem a dollar at a time one taste one taste one taste of you my magdalena

You're Not Alone

I've walked so long
I can't remember - where was my home?
Their distance faces fade away
I'm always on my own.
I can show a smile
It's not hard to do.
I can have the strength to go on
But sometime I wanna let go of everything.
When thoughtfulness is not their game
I teach by giving love.
High mountain seems higher endlessly
when they're pebbles at your feet.
And if you should still fall into despair,
there is one thing left to believe
I lie in your heart always.
Nothing is braver than honesty
My life is your faith in me.
I'll be there when you need
you don't have to hide from me.
What you are feeling now
I fill your soul.
We will seek together destiny
troubles have an end.
we'll carry on hand in hand
you're not alone.
People searching desperately outside themselves
caught up in thinking of whatever helped.
And I'd forgotten too that love exists inside me as in those I wanted from
I feel you now.
I'll be there when you need
we will live together.
Nothing is in our way
with trust in our soul.
We will seek together destiny
troubles have an end.
We will carry on hand in hand
We won't forget we have each other.
Never!
Love is in the hearts of all men
you're not alone.

Art of Life

Desert Rose
Why do you live alone
If you are sad
I'll make you leave this life
Are you white, blue or bloody red
All I can see is drowning in cold grey sand

The winds of time
You knock me to the ground
I'm dying of thirst
I wanna run away
I don't know how to set me free to live
My mind cries out feeling pain

I've been roaming to find myself
How long have I been feeling endless hurt
Falling down, rain flows into my heart
In the pain I'm waiting for you
Can't go back
No place to go back to
Life is lost, Flowers fall
If it's all dreams
Now wake me up
If it's all real
Just kill me

I'm making the wall inside my heart
I don't wanna let my emotions get out
It scares me to look at the world
Don't want to find myself lost in your eyes
I tried to drown my past in grey
I never wanna feel more pain
Ran away from you without saying any words
What I don't wanna lose is love

Through my eyes
Time goes by like tears
My emotion's losing the color of life
Kill my heart
Release all my pain
I'm shouting out loud
Insanity takes hold over me

Turning away from the wall
Nothing I can see
The scream deep inside
reflecting another person in my heart
He calls me from within
"All existence you see before you
must be wiped out :
Dream, Reality, Memories,
and Yourself"

I begin to lose control of myself
My lust is so blind, destroys my mind
Nobody can stop my turning to madness
No matter how you try to hold me in your heart
Why do you wanna raise these walls
I don't know the meaning of hatred
My brain gets blown away hearing words of lies
I only want to hold your love

Stab the dolls filled with hate
Wash yourself with their blood
Drive into the raging current of time
Swing your murderous weapon into the belly
"the earth"
Shout and start creating confusion
Shed your blood for pleasure
And what ? for love ?
What am I supposed to do ?

I believe in the madness called "Now"
Past and future prison my heart
Time is blind
But I wanna trace my love
on the wall of time, over pain in my heart
Art of life
Insane blade stabbing dreams
Try to break all truth now
But I can't heal this broken heart in pain
Cannot start to live, Cannot end my life
Keep on crying

Close my eyes
Time breathes I can hear
All love and sadness
melt in my heart

Dry my tears
Wipe my bloody face
I wanna feel me living my life
outside my walls

You can't draw a picture of yesterday, so
You're painting your heart with your blood
You can't say "No"
Only turning the wheel of time
with a rope around your neck
You build a wall of morality and take a breath
from between the bricks
You make up imaginary enemies and are chased by them
You're trying to commit suicide
You're satisfied with your prologue
Now you're painting your first chapter black
You are putting the scraps of life together
and trying to make an asylum for yourself
You're hitting a bell at the edge of the stage
and
You are trying to kill me

I believe in the madness called "Now"
Time goes flowing, breaking my heart
Wanna live
Can't let my heart kill myself
Still I haven't found what I'm looking for
Art of life
I try to stop myself
But my heart goes to destroy the truth
Tell me why
I want the meaning of my life
Do I try to live, Do I try to love
in my dream

I'm breaking the wall inside my heart
I just wanna let my emotions get out
Nobody can stop
I'm running to freedom
No matter how you try to hold me in your world
Like a doll carried by the flow of time
I sacrificed the present moment for the future
I was in chains of memory half-blinded
Losing my heart, walking in the sea of dreams
Close my eyes
Rose breathes I can hear
All love and sadness melt in my heart
Dry my tears
Wipe my bloody face
I wanna feel me living my life
outside my mind

Dreams can make me mad
I can't leave my dream
I can't stop myself
Don't know what I am
What lies are truth ?
What truths are lies ?

I believe in the madness called "Now"
Time goes flowing, breaking my heart
Wanna to live
Can't let my heart kill myself
Still I haven't found what I'm looking for
Art of life
I try to stop myself
But my heart goes to destroy the truth
Tell me why
I want the meaning of my life
Do I try to live, Do I try to love

Art of life
An Eternal Bleeding heart
You never wanna breathe your last
Wanna live
Can't let my heart kill myself
Still I'm feeling for
A Rose is breathing love

          in my life

Sueños Rotos, Deseos Perdidos

¿Por qué todo siempre tiene que ser así?
No importa que sueñe o anhele
da igual, inexorablemente se romperá
siempre ha sido así, no ha dejado ser
y siempre incansablemente , así seguirá

No importa si es un sueño pequeño
o el deseo más ambicioso que cualquiera pueda tener
siempre se despedazará sin ninguna piedad
¿entonces por qué sigo aquí?

Me lo he preguntado una y otra vez
¿por qué me molesto en abrir mis ojos en la mañana?
¿para qué respiro minuto a minuto?
¿por qué quiero seguir a pesar de todo…?

No lo sé…la respuesta siempre me ha sido esquiva
A veces en medio de la oscuridad me imagino…
que debo ser un peón…no un personaje
en una enorme obra interminable
con guionistas crueles que decidieron
- Que sea un soñador y que nunca se rinda –
Y mientras reían también dijeron
- Que nunca, jamás obtenga lo que desee -

Sí debe ser muy cómico mirar
como cada día sufro, como todo siempre
sin importar que sea se me escapa entre los dedos…

Cada vez que emprendo algo…
se destruye, zozobra, no importa que sea,
nunca consigo nada, siempre nada,
sólo oscuridad, tristeza y una soledad eterna

Si algo me hace mínimamente feliz
lo perderé, igual que antes
siempre es así, sin importar que sea…

¿Por qué? Siempre me lo pregunto…
¿Acaso no merezco sonreír?
¿Es mi destino vivir siempre fingiendo?
¿Es qué nunca debí nacer?

Creo que ésa es la respuesta…
si aquél cordón me hubiera ahorcado…
ni siquiera hubiese nacido
y no tendría que ver nada esto

Pero no, al igual que siempre, me levanté
¿para qué? Para no conseguir nada
para ver como cualquiera consigue
sin esfuerzo lo que yo anhelaba
para ver mis sueños hacerse pedazos
siempre, siempre inexorablemente…

¿Es que aquél muro debió matarme?
¿O acaso uno de ésos cristales debió cegar mi vida?
si era así…¿entonces por qué sigo aquí?

Si existe un dios vaya que es cruel…
hacer que sus “hijos” sufran así
si algún día le tengo en frente se lo exigiré
le preguntaré qué pecado cometí
para no conseguir nada de lo que deseo o anhelo

Qué fue eso tan terrible que hice
para merecer que siempre desee
lo que nunca podré tener
y también le preguntaré
qué fue lo que le pareció divertido
de hacerme escapar tres veces a la muerte

Y lo más importante, exigirle una respuesta
a mi mayor anhelo, a mi mayor deseo,
a uno que arde desde hace poco tiempo
pero que es el que más me importa

por qué aquella persona que deseo que sea feliz
no lo es, no es por mi, ni para mi, lo que deseo
es que ella sea feliz, pero aún así no ocurre
¿por qué?
¿por qué?
¿por qué?

Estoy cansado de fallar…
Me faltan fuerzas, la oscuridad me devora…
Todo se derrumba, no me queda nada…
Cuando El Sol se pone, no hay vela que pueda reemplazarlo…

no sé como sellama, lo saqué de un manga xDD

I hear a voice.
Inside hope and hesitation,
Your voice, calling me.

I hear a sound.
Inside hope and emptiness,
Far away, nearby, from the end of the world.

The flow of the wind over the earth
Quietly goes arround the turning planet.

Static that is about to be cut off by consciousness,
Instead of all memories,
The light shine on the last memory,
As if to reach you, whom I have to see.

Look at me. Find me.
The me that is divided into you several times.

Today and tomorrow and even the future,
Even if I close my eyes,
I will look for you.

The flow of the wind over the earth
Quietly goes arround the turning planet.

Find me, sleeping in darkness.
Me, inside of you, to keep living.

Today and tomorrow and forever,
Even if everything is destroyed
I will look for you.

Today and tomorrow and even the future,
Even if I close my eyes,
I will look for you,

I will look for you.

Secret Sorrow

without asking for the true reason of sadness, I tightly held you
the moon's light illuminated you I simply invited the love
It's painful I can't sleep

The fact that you were crying in a glimpse ; Just when did I realise it?
Were you simply lonely? Is this feeling a fragile dream?
Don't say anything more than that

If I love, I'll be hurting as much as I love
My thoughts have lost their life
Even though everyone wishes for love, they keep on passing by each other
You are the same It's painful isn't it?


Don't cry, No one blames you for loving someone
No one can stop the feelings of becoming to love someone ; I'm like that too so
It hurts that you can't slip away


If I love, I'll be hurting as much as I love
From tomorrow onwards, what should the both of us do?
what repeats is the days that haven't changed for the better, you have to walk but.....
I want you to know that I want to be by your side


If I love, It'll hurt as much as I love
it seems that's why I can become stronger gently
Even sadness can be changed in my thoughts, I look like I belive in it
because I won't ever give up the feelings of thinking of you

Yasashii Ryote (Gentle Hands)

I pull your icy hands toward me
We spent the flowing of time
These eyes watched from far away
What will likely be reflected there?

The moon shines upon those icy fingers
Icy tears were overflowing
A dream where I look up to the heavens
I turn my eyes to that distant time

I extend my hand into the darkness
I cannot return anymore from here
If I came to myself in the middle of a memory
The me who was closed off could see

The you who believes will come
Someday we two shall meet
Until the time when we can feel ends
I can feel your warm hands

Imprisoned in a glass cage
These wounded feelings will not thaw
I will go quietly beyond the darkness
To where the light most likely reaches

Surely the light spills forth
It wraps warmly around me
As I hide away from reality
Losing sight of that most important thing

The you who believes will come
Someday we two shall meet
Until the time when we can feel ends
I can feel your warm hands

I pull your icy hands toward me
We spent the flowing of time
These eyes watched from far away
What will likely be reflected there?

What will likely be reflected there

Separation

The mornings that are too bright tempt me to quit
I uncover everything, and entrust myself to it

I squeezed your cold fingers and you sadly smile
And I can't find any words to say, and the scenery starts to blur
If it starts, it will someday end. There is no need for excuses
I, at least, want to keep you warm
God, please just give me a little more time


"I have to go," there is no way that time will stop
My wish is blown away by the wind and my throat is dry

What lays beyond this? We are parallel lines
You are strong so you don't look back, so we will never cross paths again
The town that stood motionless starts to fall, and just the memory of you
Overflows in my heart,
And creates a deep sea, and there I drown

A sad awakening, despair that you cannot hide
But still the world is beautiful
It made me sad
I want to see you, remember again...

I squeezed your cold fingers and you sadly smile
And I can't find any words to say, and the scenery starts to blur
If it starts, it will someday end. There is no need for excuses
I at least want to keep you warm
God, please just give me a little more time

The mornings that are too bright tempt me to quit
I uncover everything, and entrust myself to it

Lo que me devora...

La oscuridad que se aparece ante mí,
como una amante seductora,
como si nada más importara…devorándome,
consumiendo todo lo que soy,
todo lo que me importa todo lo que deseo,
pero no puedo dejarla, sigue allí...
muy a pesar de lo que quiera o los que me quieran,
no puedo hacer nada cada día avanza un poco más…
mi corazón se quiebra, no lo resiste,
a pesar de tener una espada
enorme y poderosa con la cual luchar,
y esa es mi amor por ti,
pero no es suficiente me hace falta algo
una defensa...un escudo...una barrera,
una que pueda contrarrestar la penumbra
que es el otro lado de mi alma,
lo que me mueve día a día,
lo que crea mi desesperación,
pero eso no lo tengo,
al menos no de la forma en que deseo,
tu amor, tu corazón…no son míos
le pertenecen a Dios sabe quien….
o al menos quiero creer en eso…que no sé,
quien es esa persona que tiene
lo que más añoro en este mundo,
lo único que me importa,
pero es irrelevante...
porque cada mañana, después de la negrura de la noche
algo en mí se quiebra, un pedazo más,
cada hora, cada minuto, cada segundo,
esta soledad cobra una pieza más de mi alma,
de mi corazón y de mi mente
y la maldita distancia cada día
se hace más y más aplastante, no me ayuda,
este tren se descarrila cada vez más y más….
no tengo forma de huir…me aplasta,
pero no puedo dejar de mirarte, me destruye,
pero no puedo dejar de amarte, quiero irme,
quiero quedarme, quiero cortar estos vínculos,
no quiero abandonarte, quiero correr lejos
donde no me alcance lo que siento por ti,
pero es imposible moriría antes de poder hace eso……
no sólo mi corazón te ama
todo mi cuerpo te reclama,
a pesar de no haberte tocado,
no haberte tenido cerca a mi ni un solo segundo……
aún cuando aún no te he mirado directo a los ojos……
no puedo evitar sentir lo que siento,
me devora, me consume y me destruye,
pero no puedo renunciar, porque lo sé…
si existe la felicidad para mí
sólo será a tu lado….si me voy dejaré de existir,
porque ya no habrá lugar para que pueda volver a sonreír…
ya que esa que alegra la vida de las personas
solo es real cuando estoy contigo desde la distancia…
nadie jamás podrá hacer que vuelva a tener algo que
sólo tengo en primer lugar por haberme encontrado contigo,
esa es la contradicción que me devora…
el no poder tener lo que deseo…de ninguna manera. 

Sorairo Days.............

Can you hear me?
This voice of mine was futile and sucked into the darkness
If the world has a meaning
Then these feelings aren’t useless

I was crushed by my aspiration and gave up
Without knowing the color of the boundless sky

Because my thoughts that started running
Are certainly knocking on my chest even now

The me today will continue ahead
I’ll go build a tomorrow that’ll become us

The answer, that’s right, is always here

I don’t have the time to grieve about the seasons that have passed by
So that I won’t be lost again
While I still held such
Countless and simply meager regrets

I only pursued your back and came here
It’s something that only I, who was searching, can do

Because the words that you gave me on that day
Certainly reach my chest even now

Today, I’ll realize the reason of my having been born
More than I did yesterday

The answer, that’s right, is always here

Everything seemed to be completely obvious
The precious days still won’t end; and again-

Because my thoughts that started running
Are certainly knocking on my chest even now

The me today will continue ahead
I’ll go build a tomorrow that’ll become us

The answer, that’s right, is always here

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........Just which path I must follow......?

Isolation of depths of the sea

Tell me about sorrow…

"If you closed your eyes, you won't gaze into sorrow."
"If you forget the feeling of warmth, you won't feel pain."

I can't recall that gentle voice
In the depths of my mourning heart

Someone is calling me from my forgetten past
Asking me when I will take sorrow into my hands again
At this moment that will never come twice
You are all I can see

A little ship glitters silently in the distant, alone
Swept away by a torrent of grief, it disappears under the waves of my heart

Why do I search the ocean depths aimlessly
For the warmth that I should not have known

Swaying with the ripples, the ship of life sails on
Though no stars can be seen, it overcomes waves and advances on
Beyond the darkness
You are all I can see

The waves that we saw are flowing towards serenity
Flowing to the kindness that disappeared underwater

I know that there's a future where we will love each other
Until I take the sorrow back into my hands again
At this moment that will never come twice

You are all I can see....

Simplemente amo esta canción........ esta es la traducción a inglés de Shinkai no kodoku (深海の孤独)  de Houko Kuwashima....

Lost Reason

I've been asking to myself,
What this crazy feeling means to me?
I need so much more than I can give
Trying not to think of you
Tell me where you have been hiding out
There must be something I can do
Suddenly, I realize the way to go from now on
I can see, now

Wanna do I wanna do
Take you all the way now

You are the reason I'm alive
I can't take this any longer honey, please don't say good-bye
Remember the night I held you tight
Before you go make me cry
Can't you just change your mind?

I've been talking to myself,
What this dizzy feeling means to me?
You need so much more than you can give
Trying not to look for you
Tell me what you have been keeping up
There must be somewhere I can go
Finally,I realize the way to go from now on
I can feel, now

Wanna do I wanna do
Take you all the way now

I am the reason you're alive
I can't take this any longer honey, don't leave me alone
Remember the night I held you tight
Before you go play on me
Speak with your true mind
Just one wish, before you deny yourself
Stay with me, till I get high enough

You are the reason I'm alive
I can't take this any longer honey, please don't say good-bye
Remember the night I held you tight
Before you go make me cry
Can't you just change your mind?
Just one wish, before you deny yourself
Stay with me, till I get high enough